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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Almost Here!

This Sat 1:00pm Pot luck Casual dress Weiser city park. Spread the word.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Monday, August 29, 2011

Just a few more days and the celebration for Patsy

Hello everyone it is time for another update. First of all, we had a camping trip with the kids this last weekend and I think we had a great time. Good food, good weather, and good stories. Patsy would have really enjoyed it. I miss her so much and times like that I miss her even more.
We did create a new story for future campfires. Marty and chad wired a light into Chad and Careys camper while they were off on a 4 wheeler ride. Then they wired it to a remote control device that they could control at the campfire. Shortly after they went to bed, Marty started turning their light on and off. I have not laugh like that for a long time. It will be a good story for years to come.

Ok, so things are coming together for Patsys memorial on Sat. The cd is being made and Carey is making a photo to be put in the case. I have ordered the chicken and will be picking up paper plates and utensils and bottled water. I have set the time from 1 to 5 but I think if people come closer to 1 the food will be better and if the crowed leaves earlier, we can get to our homes a little sooner.

I don't all the answers but I think Patsy will be there with us and I know she will enjoy seeing everyone. We will have plenty of cds available and if you can not come, please let us know if you want one and we can send one to you.
For those that are not familiar with Weiser, get off the freeway at exit three and head north on hwy 95 to weiser. In weiser, turn left at the maverick and go about 4 blocks to the LDS church. Turn right and go one block and you will be at the park. We will be at the pavilion.

Thanks again for all the support as our journey starts to come to an end. I could not have done it with out you. RAZ

Friday, August 19, 2011

A day at a time!!!!

People always ask how I am doing!!!! That is a tough question. I think that because it was such a long battle with Patsy that I am doing better then if she had just died like I friend on Ride Idaho. I can really feel for Connie and her family.
That being said, I have my good days and my bad days. I keep thinking it must be time for her lunch or when was the last time I changed her and does she need to be turned. I took down the bed that was so much a part of our lives the last year.
I have tried to give the kids all of her things and have kept only a few special things and pictures. In a small RV it is hard to put things behind you when it is all around you.
I find that staying busy is the best medicine for moving on. Ride Idaho was great fun and good medicine. With the exception of one day where I got worked up and started crying and could not stop, we stayed busy enough that I had little time to think much about Patsy.
Selfishly, I would do anything to be able to give her a bath or comb her hair or feed her lunch. But I know that she would not want to be like that and that makes me happy for her. She used to get so mad that she couldn't make it to go potty without waking me and she so wanted to do things without my help. I can just imagine what she was thinking these last 2 years.

So, yesterday I ordered chicken for the celebration that we are having for Patsy on Sept 3rd. I will have chicken and water and paper plates and utensils. If you could bring a potatoe salad, or a desert or something like that, we all should have a great lunch. I am waiting to hear about the CD that is being made. I will have one for all that want one and if we run out, I will take orders and send them out.

I am really looking forward to seeing all of you. You all have been such a big support to me and the family. NO SUITS OR DRESSES A time for celebration!!!!! Patsy will be there with us and this is what she wanted. RAZ

Monday, August 15, 2011

I'm back

Thanks for being patient with me. I have been doing a bunch of things to stay busy. For those that know me, it is not fun to be alone. I am the type of guy that enjoys a relationship and being by my self has been a little tuff but I am trying to move on.
I went and did Ride Idaho with the ham radio guys and we had a pretty good time. Our day started at 5:30 each day and went until we went to bed at about 9:00 each night. I put about 1700 miles on the rig through some of the greatest scenery in the world. It was good to stay busy and of course I had Chad and Carey and Cooper with us on the ride to keep me out of trouble. It was a good time. We did have a few problems including and accident on the first day that had Carey driving to Sun Valley to get a lady sowed up. The third day had me taking one to Arco to get another lady a few stitches. but the worst happened on sat. The last day of the ride. Connie Shell is a volunteer and has been on the ride with us for years and her husband and her daughter do the ride. He died in his sleep friday night and it was a sad day. Carey and I spent the morning holding them and helping them while we waited for the coroner and funeral director to get there. Then I loaded them up in her car and drove them back to meridian. Carey drove my van. Why me??? I was having problems dealing with my own loss but I had to step in and help them and was glad to do it.
So, we got Patsys tape to the audio guy and Connie listened to it before she took it and said the audio sounded pretty good. I think a lot of people are going to want one. I am looking forward to seeing you all on Sept 3rd. We are having chicken prepared for everyone and will have water and drinks as well. If you want to bring something to go with that, Great!!! Remember. this will be a time to celebrate the life of a great lady so lats of smiles please.
I am helping Marty build his house. I built the pony wall today and will start laying the floor joist tomorrow and get the deck on. I am going to try to hold on until the harvest starts and then get back to work.
I want to thank you all for all the kind words and the help that you have given. You are all special to me and I mean that. That is all for now, RAZ

Saturday, August 13, 2011

If people have been trying to get a hold of me here is some info

w7raz24@gmail.com 1-208-550-7710

Friday, August 5, 2011

Gotta give you all an update and then off to bed. Tomorrow is our anniversary and Patsy and I have been together 40 years plus the years I knew her before we got married. We met in the 9th grade speech class. Seems like a life time ago. I think I am going to be really lonely tomorrow without her.
My sis called the other day and asked me to go with them to lagoon and drive the RV they had rented. I decided it would be good to get away from the bus that I have been in for a long time taking care of my sweetie. I enjoyed the trip but I did have a struggle. Walking around Lagoon by myself was a little bit tough. I had a back ache and so I took what I thought was two Excedrin. OOOPPPPSSSS !!!!! I put some of Patsys norcos in the excedrin bottle. That help my back pain and guess what, I decided there wasn't one darn ride in the park that I was to old to ride. That led to more excedrin later. One thing that I noticed is that is was easier for me while on the Norco. I can see why people take drugs to ease there pains but not for me. I need to face this head on and I know that Patsy will kick my rear if I do it any other way.
So we got back on wed night and I took the rv back to Nampa for sis. Carey and i went to the funeral home and made arrangements to pay the bill and picked up moms ashes. That went pretty well and I enjoyed visiting with them about the decisions we made. Later in the day I got a phone call from them and they said that the bill had been paid. WHAT!!!!! My sis in Seattle paid the cost and of course that made me cry. My three sisters have really help me a lot. I haven't been the best brother and they are really showing me up.

So Tomorrow i leave to go do the ride idaho event that Patsy and I have do since the beginning. It was a way to celebrate our anniversary and do a vacation. I believe she would want me to go and do the event. I will miss her.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

A quick story!!!

It has been a emotional day for me and I just can't get my thoughts together. I have been asked to keep the blog going so I am going to just write a couple of thoughts for tonight and I promise to do more update tomorrow about the trip to lagoon with my sis to my sis in seattle paying for Patsy cremation cost. No wonder my emotions are all screwed up.
I told everyone the good and the bad so here is an experience to share that helps me a bit.
I watched my dear wife from the minute she had the stroke until she passed. The nurse said that the next 48 hours would be the answer. I already new the answer but as usual, I held out hope. Over the next week, we watched as she lay there and we knew it was her time to go. But for those of you who have never gone through this, this is for you.

patsy passed away and Katy was holding her hand and watching her while I sat in the chair and tried to get a few minutes of sleep. Carey was in the bedroom doing the same because we had been up with her all night. Patsy took her last breath and she was gone. We called the funeral home and it was an hour or so before they got there. When they got here, we brought in a sheet and wrapped her body all but her face. In that hour after Patsy had left her body, a change happened to her that was amazing to see. Her body started changing and by the time we were done, we hardly recognized her. And what was left was not the Patsy we all loved but a shell that no longer had a spirit. I hope I have painted the picture correctly.

I am so proud of my daughters. They asked us if we wanted them to carry Patsy out of the rv because they could not get the bed it to her. We said that we wanted to do it.
My three daughters and I picked her up and carried her out and layed her on the bed and I gave her a kiss goodbye.

My girls showed great strength and love and they are very special. Patsy will hug them again someday.

Okay that is all for tonight but please check in tomorrow, The journey continues. RAZ

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

On the road

Dad asked me to do a little post. He decided to take Aunt Verlyn up on her offer. If you remember from the previous post she needed help to drive a huge motor home down to Ogden. He will be back tomorrow evening we're all hoping the fresh air will do him some good.
Carey